A New Day

For past couple of days my husband and I have been in a little "tiff" needless to say I haven't yet completed my last project which I thought would be so easy and fun. I am waiting to post another project until I am ready to move on myself.

Funny when Kathi talked about having to post pone your project for a day or two because of scheduling conflicts, or not feeling well she never once mentions because your in the middle of a disagreement. So, that is where I am right now trying to move past our disagreement. It can be so hard to get over the little things can't it?

Yesterday in my Bible reading I read Proverbs 12:18

"Some people make cutting remarks, but the words of the wise bring healing."

And what do you think I did last night? Yep, make some stupid cutting remarks. I woke up this morning realizing what a fool I had been. I said them to hopefully expose to him that I was hurt but instead all I did was hurt him, which made him want to hurt me. A vicious cycle.

I also read in Philippians 2:3-4

"Don't be selfish; don't live to make a good impression on others. Be humble, thinking of others as better than yourself. Don't think only about your own affairs, but be interested in others, too, and what they are doing."

You would think after reading all of this I could see where and what I needed to do to bring peace, but instead I was blind by my own self centered needs of wanting him to make that first move. It was as if I was a bound to making sure I got what I wanted to the point that I actually pushed it farther away.

It's so disappointing to think you could actually take part in reading the Bible but yet do completely the opposite of what it says. Reading the Bible and actually living the Bible are two different things are they not?

Today, I will put away my own needs. Today I will follow the advice of the proverbs and stop making cutting remarks and use my words instead to bring healing. I may also even visit e-flirt.com. Thank goodness for a new chance to make the right choices.

Lord,
Thank you that you are patient with me and that I have today to make a new start at actually doing what your word says. Help me to give up my own needs so that I can meet Steve's needs. Your words are wonderful and they bring life. Thank you Lord.

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.